Saturday, July 7, 2007
remember what today is
paper and string on wire, about 9.5" across [work in progress, sketch]
This is my paper leaf hat, still in the working. In my rush in making it, i did not stop to get a better sense of how it will fit on a head. As it is, it looks quite stupid on my head so that is why there is no picture of me wearing it.
I am rushing through things these days, forgetting to let the fingers linger longer on the materials and for the eyes to dwell as much as they want to on the different markings and creases...too anxious to wrap it all up, too eager to show and tell, wanting still to recapture something that was lost or has been...
And i am seeing this not just in my work, but also in relationships with friends and family, wanting desperately to hang onto the moments, the feelings that once were...even if it is not with the same person or circumstances.
It is like what you said, John, about how some writers never went beyond their first great novel because they were still trying to recreate what they achieved in the past. Masterpieces can't be recreated, can they? Got to start fresh and build upon where you left off, not retrace and live backwards.
Something i just realized more concretely in the realm of friendships. Need to see them for what they are individually, and take time to let each one become what it wants to be at its own pace, and not impose expectations and the past onto it...